Christmas Blog

Hello.

It's December, and that means its Christmas madness. I still remember gettin' that Transformer I always wanted from my parents, or that GI Joe from Santa. As I got older, I got lesser gifts, but Christmas is such a joyful time of the year, and til this day it still makes me the happiest. Coming from Toronto, Canada, I was accustomed to having a white Christmas. I always thought it was weird watching certain Christmas movies that took place in LA or Miami and there wasn't any snow. Being in Atlanta now, it's the same story so I miss SNOW very much! I can't wait to see my family and friends back home.

Whenever December hits I'm always reminded that time is slipping. Not slipping in a bad way, but realizing that time is flying, and that life is short! Now that I look back on all the Christmas's I've encountered, I can see how much I've grown from all the different gifts I've received from others. It went form toys to video games to clothing to cologne to higher end brands to money and then to more sentimental gifts. Now, I give more gifts than receiving, but I'm not complaining. I have come a long way looking back at this, and realized how much I've grown as a person. Back in my high school days during the Christmas holidays, I remember having a heart to heart with a friend of mine and she asked, "What quality within yourself would you like to improve on or change?". I gave her the answer that I needed to get over my shyness and even though my answer was true, because being shy got me nowhere fast, I realize now that there was something bigger than that. When she first asked me the question, I honestly couldn't think of anything right away. Not because I thought I was perfect, but I honestly thought I had my life under control and I made the right decisions based on my experiences. I gained a lot of knowledge throughout my life, but I made a critical mistake. I shoulda been asking this question to myself every year to remind myself that I'm not perfect and know everything about anything. If you ask me this question now, I confess that I have many things that I need to improve on or change. PRIDE. Actually my Dad's pride is the worst, and maybe it brushed off on to me, but who knows. We both think we can do everything on our own and our way is the better way. I never thought I was this person all these years, but I was. It saddens me to think how I brushed off on others, especially the ones that matter to me the most. Recently I had to go through one of the roughest patches in my life, and it all stemmed from my attitude and pride. From the time my high school friend asked me the question, It angers me to think that I could of started working on my pride issues since then. BUT I had so much pride at the time that I neglected the problem. I was reminded recently that my old ways were unhealthy. I could burn a lot of bridges and relationships this way. I should know more than anyone that teamwork is a key element to success. My growth on my whole entire music career is based on not just all the hard work I put in, but with the combination of hard work from my team, friends, family, associates and fans. I am embarrassed to carry certain qualities that I'm not proud of, but I'm glad I got to share my story with you. I'm not perfect and I'll never let my issues get the best of me. I promise to never slip again, and improve on my flaws to become a better person. Please don't lose faith in me. I love you!